Had the most amazing time tonight. Day was pretty average, not bad. But at 10pm tonight he arrived back in my life, and with such force it took my breath away. I have never known what I have with this person, it's a passion that just consumes me and leaves me aching for more. Not just a sexual ache, but for very mundane things as well. Things like a cup of coffee with him while fighting over the paper. Or going for a walk in the rain together. Or feeling him press me up against the wall and having me because if he does'nt he's going to lose his mind. It's this need to devour him and be devoured at the same time, along with the need to just be in the same room together for hours without having to say a word. Tonight I fell madly, deeply in love with him all over again. It's a shame he is just smoke and mirrors, a voice that gives me everything i want and nothing at all, all at the same time. It's so painful, and if i lost it again it feels like it would destroy me. But having it already is. What's a girl to do?